Infertility

So After losing my son and going through depression I realized it was going to be hard to get pregnant again. It took us 4 yrs of ttc (trying to conceive) to get pregnant again. During this time we lived in Washington. Brian's mom passed away of pancreatic cancer and his family fell apart so we moved to Nevada.  We loved it down here both of us had jobs within 3 months of each other. We moved in with my parents until we could save up enough money to get an apartment as we had left everything we had back in Washington (starting over as some say). We ended up getting jobs, getting married, and starting our lives. Little did we know that the honeymoon would show prosperous for us. Almost 2 months later I found out I was 7 weeks pregnant. I couldn't believe it. I was so excited. I took a previous test 2 wks earlier cause I was feeling weird, It came out with a very faint line I had thought oh no i can't be we been ttc forever and nothing, (it was very VERY FAINT) and in my mind I thought it is just playing tricks on me. So i threw it away thought ahh if its its true i will test in another wk. Well i forgot and 2 wks later I was still feeling weird i had one test under the cabinet in the bathroom and figured oh why not. Well I took it and BIG 2 LINES right there I WAS LIKE OH MY GOD OH MY GOD NO WAY!! I screamed at my mom MOM COME HERE NOW!!! LOL this was like at 11:45pm at night. I surprised Brian the next day (he worked graveyard shift) in the morning after he got off of work. He usually comes home then to relax he gets on the computer for a bit to check fb/email's what have ya, so I put the word program up and said SURPRISE YOUR GOING TO BE A DADDY in huge font. So we waited (mom/dad/& I) and saw him walk in the house i gave him a kiss and said good morning then i watched him walk into the computer room and then he walked right back out and and he said r u serious and i started smiling and said yup I'm pregnant. Hubby started to tear up in that very moment. We were so happy. (now Brian isn't the kind of guy to cry so I new he was so happy because of this). We had a very eventful pregnancy. My first ultrasound showed we were having twins. We were a little shocked to say the least. But upon more examination only 1 baby had a heart beat and was around 8wks and the other baby was no heart beat around 6 wks. This made us sad but happy that we at least had 1 baby. I asked the Dr all kinds of questions about what will happen ect.. due to the other baby being passed. He said we will have to wait and see. I ended up miscarrying that baby around 11wks and thank god our little boy still stuck on as we thought we were losing the whole pregnancy. I bleed from 11wk-14wks. I ended up having a cerclage at 15 1/2 wks and was on bedrest for 23wks. We ended up having our little boy March 16th, at 8:14pm via emergency c-section. He was absoulty the most beautiful things we had ever seen. He looked so much like our first son but Casey looked like brians twin, Alexander had more of my facial (softness) features. I was on the pill for 8 months after having son because we didn't want to chance another pregnancy right away after a c section. (You are suppose to wait a year in between, to completely heal before another pregnancy). My son is now 4 yrs old. And hubby and I have been ttc again. Again 4 yrs and not another baby. All my friend right now are pregnant. Everyone is on there 2nd or 3rd child. When I first had Alex. Its really hard buying baby things for baby showers when you want a child so bad. So this is my story of infertility. I have PCOS on top of being heavy which is causing fertility issues. My hubby also only has 1 testicle after having testicular cancer 7 yrs ago which is a factor also. He has low amount but quality is good so?? I may just at random right about my feelings on this and wanted to post on this blog about why that might be. I am currently trying to lose weight and hoping that helps in ttc.