my first blog

So since everyone is blogging these days I figured why not. It might be therapeutic to say the least and get things off my chest which may or may not be said. During the reading of these blogs (if u are reading this lol) I might switch to different subjects spontaneously, thats just how my mind works and I'm sorry if its confusing. So this is my first blog. Today has been a trying day. My 4 yr old son has decided to be a crazy monster today but at last its bedtime and I'm here. Lots have been going on since 2011 started. I can't quiet believe it is SPRING now. Every year I get older are the years going to go faster? I hope I don't find myself one day at the age of 60 thinking. OMG I'm old.. lol.. Hubby and I are still longing to have another child. I have pretty much given up. Everyone around me are having 2nd 3rd, ect.. babies and I sit here with only one. Which I am completely grateful for, don't get me wrong. I am truly blessed as he is our miracle child. I just always wanted to have a big family and I feel in some ways that I have doomed my child with being an only child and having the only child syndrome. I miss feeling pregnant also. I wish I could go back to his pregnancy and do it all over again. I would enjoy it much more and do all the things i wish I could have done a bit more like getting a 4D ultrasound. That would have been cool. I also miss going to church. Since my parents have moved away I haven't been going very much anymore. We truly need a second car. Well thats enough for this first blog. More to come in the future perhaps?